| I was recently looking at my brother Josh's and ,my future sister in law, Kristi's engagement pictures... All the normal ones of them sitting beside eachother smiling warmed my heart just like any other cute picture... But then, I turned to the next couple pages and the pictures literally made me cry... Tears were flowing because I could see how much these two loved eachother... And I remembered when Kristi told me she was tired of getting the guys that weren't willing to be what she needed... So she made a list... And my brother met all the criteria  ... My friends and were discussing what we want in a guy and so I made a little list-type-thing... Not too extensive but they're very important...  Find the guy that knows how to be a gentleman (Don't know what a gentleman looks like anymore? - Hint: He opens doors, offers to pay, and actually has the words "thank you" in his vocabulary)
Wait for the guy that gets ahold of you or calls because he wants to... Not just when you tell him to do so Find the guy that'll agree to do something he may not be too fond of just because it'd mean a lot to you Wait for the guy that even after so much time together... after most of the suprises & infactuation has worn off... he still knows and treats you as if you're his everything (Or maybe he just treats you really good lol... I do know there are a lot of other important things in life) Find the guy that knows exactly what he wants... you |
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| Yay!! New status on the college dilema... I got into OU ... Which isnt where I want to go but I think it's b-e-a-utiful down there and at least one college wants me!! Wohoo!! I'm not gonna be a hobo for the rest of my life like I was afraid was gonna happen lol... But I'm still hoping the one college I really really really really really (ect... ect... ect...) want to go... But I'll keep praying about it... ~Rachelmae~ |
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| I had this terrifying epiphany a couple days ago... This year hasn't been the greatest because it's as if I'm being set up for dissapointment and getting into things I truly want isn't an option for me ... It all started with getting kicked out of the ACT in the summer... Let me tell you that wasn't the best way to start my senior year, as a criminal lol... Not getting on Homecoming Court sort of upset me, because what girl doesn't want to be on that?? Especially since I never thought I would get on it, but when last years Homecoming Queen and a lot of other people said I would get on... It got into my head that I might just make it and they made me think about it and then I got my hopes up... Not getting into Upper Class was another thing... Everyone said "Oh you'll get in that! Blah Blah Blah... try out!!".... Yeah deffinitely didn't in.... There were more dissapointments, but I won't go on because I think there's an understanding as to where I'm going...
The thing is... I want to get into a certain school and everyone says "Oh don't worry about it!! I know you're going to get in!!"... Yeah really?? You know this?? Did you know the other things were gonna happen too?? Noo... you didn't... I had this terrifying epiphany that I think God arranged all those things so I knew what failure and dissapointment were truly like... so when I don't get into the college I want, then I'll know how to handle myself... Honestly I think I handled myself pretty well in all those instances by laughing it off or just realizing that it wasn't ment to be... But I don't know how I'd handle not getting into the college I want... I really don't and it scares me... |
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